I've spent the last month sitting on my ass at home in Ontario all safe and sound doing shit all. I don't even work right now. I had two jobs in Banff that I left to come back here to visit my family and when one wouldn't take me back on, I could no longer live in the staff housing so I can't go back to Banff right now. I need to get my resume done and apply to some hotels or something and get myself back there but I just keep putting it off and it's honestly pathetic. I've also royally screwed up my entire circadium rhythm. I've been up until like 8am a lot of mornings and then sleeping all day and getting up around 4 or 5pm. It's very strange and I'm not entirely sure how I managed to let it happen but it's annoying. The only thing that I'm genuinely proud of myself for having done recently is reading a book. This may not seem like a big deal but to me it's monumental. I was a ridiculously avid reader for years and I stopped when Jeff and I started dating because I was so focussed on having him in my life that I just didn't really care for anything else. After we broke up I think I maybe read one or two books (while I was in Banff) but I just never got back into it for some reason. Today I wasn't doing much of anything so I picked up Sloppy Firsts from my shelf which I started ages ago and never got past the first quarter and I finished the damn thing. Finally. I read a book again. There are a lot of things I've been doing that I used to do before I entered the world of being too focussed on guys to give a shit about anything else. It's been refreshing. The last couple weeks haven't been so great though. I've been way too lazy. My life has consisted of this:
1. Call of Duty: Black Ops. - I finally hit level 50 and might prestige soon if I feel like giving up all my weapons
2. Netflix - I watched all of 18 to Life and Being Erica (3 seasons) and way too many movies to count
3. Facebook
4. Stumbleupon
5. Reorganizing my bedroom/possessions (which is actually healthy cause I'm getting rid of things I don't need and that's good for me)
6. A super relaxing bubble bath with either a book or a movie to watch almost every other day
7. Stumbleupon
8. www.ch131.com
9. Monday nights at Sin City with Parker Vito and Wingett
10. Playing with my dog
Yep. Thats about all my life has consisted of lately. Most of it is spent in either pj's or track pants with air-dried hair and no makeup on. Very sad. I should go get a tan or something. Or spend an hour at Chapters. I might do that tomorrow.
So based on my list of things that I have been doing lately. I think it's only appropriate to make a list of things that I want to start doing more frequently or continue doing because I really need to get my life sorted out and whatnot and now is the best time to start is it not?
1. Reading more. I really should focus on some of the classics since I'm going to need them for school but for now I want to get started on Second Helpings and this book I heard about called Across the Universe (nothing to do with the movie) that sounds really interesting.
2. Writing more. I'm starting with this. But one thing I've always wanted to try is writing a novel or short stories or something of that nature. I have to start somewhere though so here is good for now.
3. Physical Activity. I barely leave my house anymore. I use the treadmill once in a while or snowboard once in a while but that's about it so I need to start amping it up a bit, which leads me to...
4. Do yoga. I've always wanted to so I'm going to.
5. Finish my resume and send out some to places in Banff. I'm not even sure if Banff is the right place for me anymore but it doesn't feel like Peterborough is so I don't know where else to go.
6. Finish organizing and getting rid of all my crap. I keep stopping and not starting back up for days. I have a LOT of stuff and I don't need it at all.
7. Keep my room clean. I'm sick of walking on clothes. Doesn't it always feel better when the room you're in is organized and nice-looking? It makes me feel better.
8. Be more positive. I've been such a downer lately it's depressing. I need to fix my attitude and get happy again and stop allowing something that happened ages ago to still have negative affects on me.
I might add to that list eventually, but it's a good starting point at the very least. So here's to getting perspective and trying to fix one's life! Let's hope it all works out at some point in time.
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